Edited version,

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this was what i've sent like august last year ... and it came true ....

and i replied ....

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this marks the ending episode here ....

feel dat ...... ermm ...

there're lots to say ...

firstly i would wanna thank all my friends and supporters out there, not forgetting my relatives ! you guys out there are great !! recieving all the messages of concern, care and support.  from different levels of stages, from public places, pubs, studios, national tv, i've learnt to adapt to different environments. it's a fun time having this unforgettable experience being part of my life ..... those who have my photos taken with me ... please send them to me @ yusheng@jademusicasia.com with your names, email addresses and contact no.....

embarking onto the next few stages of my life ... i decided to rest for a while ....will not be posting anymore entries from now onwards... marking an end on this website for the time being.... i will still continue to make music and write songs. this is not the end .... but a brand new start i believe.

last but not least i guess ... i have no regrets starting jade. a bunch of hardcore musicians and talented people. the substances and everything.

Special thanks

to bozz: good luck in your show with Dick Lee, Indra and Sydney Tan ..... 

to shaun: your knowledge on fusion and jazz remains a trace in my future music. thanks... 

to bryan: will wish to work with you on assisting me on song writing for chords and stuffs .... you taught me quite a bit

to lawrence: my motivation and strength, to work harder everytime and thanks to lawrence... now i know slightly what richie kotzen is playing...

to darren: you're the man who accompanied and started writing music with ... will continue to work on our pieces with wenjian .... and the coordinating of the whole fan club. a mass of 300 over people in such a short time of 6 weeks is not easy ...

to jamie, belinda: thanks for standing strong behind us and gave us loads of help in coordinating everything. in such a short time, it had been tiring ... finally a break now ... be prepared for more if there's chance....

to my supporters: many thanks to all who love our music and took care of us with all the cards, messages, gifts ..... i would never had gone so far without all of you.

to jade supporters: hope our combination had gave you tons of entertainment... bozz always bring out his mum, shaun always rocking hardest, bryan never fail to bring laughter, xiaolong never fail to be the cutest, and me always there to discipline my 4 children.... the love and power u all had gave us, piece a dream and make our determination stronger as musicians to give you better music.

we promise we will stand stronger to give you not only entertainment... and great music that live thru part of your lifes.....

To: mummy ....

i'm not sure if you will be reading this .... lawrence and me love you loads... thanks for giving birth to us .... we will live on and work hard to do you proud....

Maybe you guys can leave testimonial for me in my guestbook instead of friendster....

signing off....

22th may 2006....

Terrence

i'm not sure when i will be back. but i promise i will .....

today had been parading thru the bus along orchard road. the bus running through orchard road and we are playing on the bus top and i was literally hosting for the 5 groups to appeal for calls. guess everyone got a shock when i was hosting. hope it's didn't give all of you a scare. but i guess i gave the 5 groups a scare. :P once again. thank our supportors who had been supporting us and following us throughout the whole show. you guys were great. at least our efforts are appreciated.

yesterday's performance was great. this is the kind of performance i wanna stage to you guys every week. though still not up to my expectations. but i guess all of you had fun !! our rendition of nan ren bu gai rang nu ren liu lei had provide a new revolution and feel for chinese pop scene.

this is the kind of music we wanna give. instead of playing something similar.... this is what musicians should deliver. now we had done our part and done our best to let all of you see JADE. and now i hope that you guys will pull us through together and see us through to another level of the competition.

i promise ! JADE will continue to do our very best and TOP the superband in singapore if possible. fighting spirit and hardwork will always be on our mind in delivering the best music to you. With you, we will never stop ! thanks all.

for those who wanna vote for us. the voting lines are open at 8pm till 11pm on the 22th may 2006 monday night. Channel U Superband !! to vote for jade, please call 1900 112 3003 or sms b3 to 71199

ya ya recently alot of publicity on alot of forums that sound like me... but it's not me... to clarify again. but thanks to those who had been posting all these for jade.  haha thanks all ... just let nature takes it course... we will work hard and rock on this weekend ! :P we're not very talented and not so good looking.... just ok only. aiya ~~ ok ... kinda stuck. don't know what to say. ermmmzzzz thanks for the efforts anyway. if i were posting on any forums, i will post with my own name. i don't post using other accounts. clear the misunderstandings .... thanks all.

sometimes i feel that things are destined to happen. firstly yesterday i feel very disappointed that lucify got out of the superband league. alright, i confess to all of you. i almost teared. because it's really hard to describe that kind of agony. i shall not elaborate. i guess the whole world watching superband would know.

this time round i woke up in the morning, had lunch as usual. only found out that one of my molars cracked. after a long tussle with myself, i finally decide to remove the tooth. because it's not going to benefit or help me but just irritating me. it's not going to be very easy. due to the fact that i'm going to perform on saturday for revival round. alright people, pray hard for me.....

alot of people had been asking me who is a threat to jade in the revival round. THE ANSWER IS .... OURSELVES. to win the revival round, we have to defeat ourselves. to be frank with all of you. all the bands have equal chances in revival round. one last league, we just have to rock the stage and be at our best and giving all we can. we will rock on !

ok pray hard for my tooth now... haizzz....

recently not much filming that we're doing for superband and preparing for the revival round, i manage to go malaysia to see the second most important woman in my life, other than my mum, which is my grandmother.

took care of me since young. other than mummy ... she is another important person to me... :P jealous ? she dotes me like a kid.....

i went to attend my friend's wedding ... so touching... when they were reading their vows face to face in front of everyone .... if anyone had attend the ceremony at ROM would know it .... thereafter, we set off to karaoke having a gathering after so long. maybe like 1 year plus since i last had a gathering with them ?

thanks to all of them who had been supporting like all of you reading this website here. the kuku peoplez ... anyway they had been asking me to sing ballad in the ktv and kept asking me why didn't i sing in superband competition is so different ? yet again going through this long explanation and conversation. the approach towards fast rock songs and ballads are totally different, so we can't compare. if there's a chance i sing ballad, would you all wanna hear and tell them the difference ?

leaving the stage of superband is like an emptiness in our weekends.. preparing hard for the songs, doing jogs and singing exercises to prepare for the revival round had been my daily routine everyday now. and getting ready to rock the stage till the very end of superband.

after watching and knowing jing bao yue tuan got out of superband top 10, i feel we should really stick to simple songs and comfortable songs which is easy for my band and for me. like what qinobe did in hou yuan jia, is all simplified version of the original. and again we can see. they really choose the songs very well. congrats to them. definitely i would like to take them on in the competition all the way into the finals.

actually alot of them had asked me, how come some groups managed to stay in the competition for so long, even though the standard is not there. i couldn't really think of anything else other than the 70% percent sms. the supporters of other bands are really very strong. like eg. sb ?? just like jing bao supporters, if they are strong enough supporters backing jing bao yue tuan, that had not happened to them..... well sometimes life is just this way. i even vote for jing bao to stay in the competition. was very worried for them. but still the good bands are gone.... that's the cruel part of the competition. it's not about doing not well ... it's the faith and support they have from their supporters .... i hope i have all your support out here in revival round of superband on the 22th may ... and i will work hard to prove the judges that i can sing fast songs ..... though i'm better in slow songs ....

no matter what, i will work very very hard ! :P wait for me ....

was watching my recording for the past few rounds and flashing back my previous performance on other gigs. i was like... what have i been doing in the past 3 rounds... think i'm just too stress... and plus when i got my kind of voice i want, we choose to sing the wrong song... suicide attempt ~~ haha well, we could only blame ourselves. and we could only pay for our mistake. but i would say the certain group supporters are really strong in their votes and still surviving ... well now i shall be more relax and train harder. shall task out my things that i'm handling right now to other people so i can be relax hehe.... hurray ~~ finally a break for us ... and we shall recharge and move a longer way and all the way to the top by all means putting our best efforts ... i know i had disappoint those people who support us by performing on the wrong song... so even the taste of the thing doesn't come out. well we just have to move on and be better, and even be the best.

we will work hard ok ? wait for us to show you the bonzai we plant....

really thank 933 friends who are rooting and backing jade... with the different theme performance in the future rounds of superband i hope we have a chance to move further and showcase we're a versatile band ! ct, bm, llz, cly, ljx, gum siahz ... i owe it to you guys. never regretted working in 933 before. a big thank you also.

really thanks for everyone who had been supporting jade in the superband competition. from people who don't know us, till knowing us, sms and calling for jade, rooting jade. i guess it's a long way that we've walked. alot of people had sympathized me and in fact feel sad for me.

but to be frank, in my life, i had not regretted doing anything at all. i think alot and the decisions i made, had been through lots of considerations. but i would say, i'm not afraid of failures. because i accept my mistake. wrong choice of songs means wrong choice of song. but i would say the quality of voice and the pitching standard is much more better than th previous few rounds in the competition. i didn't miss any melody or move off scale. and i shall this time take this short break of 2 over weeks time make sure that my singing improves.... actually i find i'm really off my normal standard in this whole competition. but nevertheless i will train extremely hard to sing well.

and i shall never choose the wrong song. the future rounds of competition are much more fare and best to prove a superband. rather than competing in a fix genre every week. i also wish i can sing a certain genres to bored the audience... shall not talk further ... time to practice.... taking a break is making us move further this time. jade shall be ever green .... love all of you and a big thank you to all. thank you ...

it's really a day full of unexpected.... firstly ... during the rehearsals i discovered that my mobile phone was lost. and this phone had been newly bought just a month ago. i was really sad. because i dropped it in the tv theatre and the moment i try calling the phone, the phone had already been switched off. i had not leave the tv theatre at all during this whole period of time. the whole point is, the phone had been lost during a period when only contestants and production team are there or maybe the cleaners.  ..it's not very nice to conduct a bag search of whatever. i just don't want to make the matter big. that's why i didn't raise much attention other than just announcements. because i'm just a contestant ... i don't want things to turn out ugly.. singtel had offered me a 10% discount for the phone replacement. but my mobile phone retail price cost $848. so end up i lost a 800 over dollars. sighzzz....

secondly, the best part now comes... my mic went off when the song was halfway. the amps went short circuit, cutting the microphone .... but i continue to sang on .... without vocal sound in the actual show. but the tv recording did record my voice. i was quite happy that my reaction was well enough that i carried on singing and treat it as nothing had happened. but too bad when the song was ending, they cut us and made us redo the song again ... it's a competition. so everything will be only once.... whatever comes after it's already like another song. but we still sang the same song. but the feelings emote will be of another song. nevertheless we kept wondering ourselves ... which part went wrong with us. when we got a 5 points in one of our scores from one of our judges. had been tossing in bed all night, thinking what's wrong with our music when other judges gave an average of 7-8 points. sometimes i ask myself... what is a superband ? a superband is a band who is able to play all kinds of music, or constantly do a kind of music and perform the same thing every week ? i don't know ....

well, i guess all of you out there didn't expect and know that i had even lost my phone at all because i didn't show it on my face and didn't affect me somehow on stage. and this time i really enjoyed myself on the stage. and the more i stand on the stage the more relax i am as the rounds passed on. i know i need to improve, and well i will work hard on that. i shall not let any obstacles stop me from improving and playing music.

during the morning, we reached mediacorp, you people waiting for us with all the food and stuffs. on behalf of jade, we really thank all for the hardwork and effort you all had put in.. we really felt the warmth and your concern. to say, with all of you out there, we shall put on a good show and work extremely hard despite everything.... think these few days i would rest more before serious flu strike me. i'm already down with fever... weak me. i will continue to rock on with all of you out there....

Love
Terrence

time really flies .... it's already the end of april ... we had just finish filming our <<on the beat>> profile, which will be screening on the 2nd of may i guess .... and there's another filming of our profile for superband also ... think the superband on is much more fun .... wonder how will it be .... recently had been practicing my vocals and doing lots of shopping for our costumes .... because it's so hard to maintain our rest time with so many things going on... that's why on the verge of falling sick quite a no. of times. but all thanks to my vitamins that i've been taking intensively ... hopefully it works.... it's going to be another few days of intensive work again .... practice practice and practice... shall be singing mayday's jue jiang this week. hopefully all of you can sing with us together !!

for those who wanna watch us live in studio for the
quarterfinal 3 recording on this saturday, which is
29th apr 2006 at 6.45pm to 1030pm,

please go to jade yahoo group at
http://groups.yahoo.com/groups/superband_jade
Email Darren @ jadefanclub@gmail.com  with your contact no. and name ...

let's rock together !!

today went to do my hair at our sponsored salon in orchard wellington building ... it's call shunji matsuo hair studio ... after my hair do, happily i took a picture and mms the picture onto the superband blog website of jade.... but imagine ... the mms blog entry was repeat 100 over times on the blog website reposting every 5 minutes... don't think there's anything wrong with my phone... because i had restarted my phone and my phone should not be sending any thing else again as i only sent once... but the post was repeated so many times that i've lost count... well... luckily the picture i took was not too ugly... if not i think it would be so so aweful !! can you imagine it ?

hmmm  my flu is slowly leaving me but the block nose and phlegm is still in my body .... hmmm shall watch out and have plenty of vitamins... hopefully by the time the recording on the saturday, i would be at least 80% recovered....

actually am thankful to so many wishes and comments being given... they are much appreciated... i'm too disappointed with my performance too that day .... but definitely this saturday i don't wish to screw things up because of my condition ... will learn to put on my best even my body condition is not there... just another learning process of mine .... everything is not easy... just take effort to learn and master it slowly ... hope you guys can see us grow and improve ... good nite ... tomorrow there's filming of on the beat programme. better sleep early... sweet dreams....

on the past few days ... was really down with throat infection and fever .... guess i'm adjusting back to the busy schedules and have to learn to take good care of myself already ... in a competition ... it's not easy to upkeep the standard of performance all the while due to the body changes... so i guess now starting to get the hang of the competition. i am learning to take care of myself ... really thanks for all the honey, lozenges, drinks and cards. i will take good care of myself and get my best performance on stage to return you all.

singing in a band is not easy... when it's off stage, alot of things are alright ... during practice, there's no fatigue to take in consideration of... and no sound problems... but on stage especially when it's a competition. it's really tough ! coz every unforeseen matters will fall in the same time... seriously i feel being hardworking in training is really not enough... if i train so hard and i don't take care of myself, i will not be able to perform at all !! so from this competition, i've really learnt that taking good care of myself is very important ....

now in the top 13, i find because of the long hours of recording, i shall catch enough sleep the day before or find time to rest and sleep. if not i can't perform well on stage at night ! and in these 2 rounds of the competition i feel i didn't do as well as i expected. it's way below the standard of even my audition standard. during audition, though i didn't practice alot... but i think i did get enough rest.... now it's like out of 1 week, i have to be in mediacorp for like 2 full days, and outside guidance lesson with wu jia ming teacher is another day, plus some shooting on our free days and our own practice had practically take up 1 whole week of my time.

from now on i shall discipline myself to rest more and take good care of myself i swear ... i would work hard and work hard on taking care of myself ... i would recover !! and fever, throat infection, flu, please stop coming !! :P

alright .... it's time we get back to work .... today woke up extremely early for the superband reporting at 9.30am and we practice and reach home late at like 1230 am !! and was only able to rest at 3am ... waking up at 7.30 to prepare .... it's like OMG no wonder i fell sick .....

in the quarter finals it's so sad to have almost fell on the stage and we were the first one to sing ... the moment i almost fell ... i made a big mistake ... but nevertheless throughout the song i'm more relax and enjoyed myself because the sound was good !! and i just relax and sing to my jade supporters ... was so nice. ... miss a note is just a hicup ... sick and almost fell are just excuses ... but definitely jade will rock on with you guys and will show you the better one in the next round... tomorrow is always better !! so round 2 recording, we'll made it up ... at least for quarterfinals 1 i didn't stand like a block .... hehe.... cheers !! with you guys out there supporting ... i am really touched ... we will rock on !!

for those who wanna add me on msn ... my msn is yusheng@jademusicasia.com talk again ...

dear all .... thanks everyone for the support to see me through to this top 14 competition .... so scary ... almost died of heart attack haha ... think other groups have a very big base of supporters than we do.... but nevertheless we still manage to pull through. really hope that next round will be better ....

ok alot of people had been smsing me and giving me their wishes ... hereby like to thank them for all the support and wishes ... keep them coming ... i do read them !! from sec sch friends to colleagues and all the past people who i've worked with and met with all came by to help this time. hopefully we can be your pride and music of your life. we live only once, we don't want to be complacent in this competition. hence, we promise to put in the best performance irregardless of the sound quality or whatsoever. think we shall achieve the best out of our capabilities. hope everything would be fine and sound for us. looking at bryan wong from star idol, he was good ... but ended up complacency of himself and supporters made him into the comeback round ....

talking about the big jam, the sounding of big jam was really terrible ... briefly describe what had happened to me on the stage. it was total chaos that we can't hear ourselves on the stage. i can't pitch without a ear monitor. for those first 6 bands who performed during the big jam, it turned to a curse to us.... amber and lucify weren't at their best..... guess we would never expect that to happen. because during afternoon sound test. everything was simply perfect ! imagine how much confidence and reliance do we have to the sound team.... ok bottom line ... i shall depend on myself and our instinct to perform this time which is the next round of the competition. the first quarter finals !!

i admit i was badly affected by the sound quality that i mind and pressured myself too much to rely on the sound to pitch. wasn't really enjoying myself when the unexpected happened... lesson learnt ! i must enjoy more !! shall make my life with you guys who had been supporting me always and giving all the wishes over me. i will put in my best to bring you guys proud ! love all of you.... my readers, my friends, my relatives and everyone. help me reach out to those around you too !! i will do my best i promise !!

and i would like to mention that your tears and smiles are ours ! we can feel you from here. keep on supporting jade. we won't let you down. join the jade family in the top 14 ! join our yahoo group for updates !!  looking at those people who are willing to share our sorrows and joy in the studio. jade is very touched and thankful. hopefully there're more people to support us in the studio in future no matter is it results show or performance. i guess we need to gather more tickets by individually applying into mediacorp ticketing. if not we'll be only sized up by 10 supporters only, compared to other groups... strong supporters of 30 of them .... or even 50 of them if all the supporters of other bands manage to get the tickets.... your presence is jade's confidence. we'll do our best !

as the tickets aren't enough to meet all of you who want to come, don't wait and hesitate. let our powers combine and work on to apply for tickets from channel u website. rehearsal soon !! i will work hard.