past few days my website had been going through server shifting. so it's not accessible to anyone... now going through lots of headache about handling my personal stuffs. alot of things that i can't say... lots of frustrations going through .... think it's not easy ... and i guess got quite a few commitments to take into consideration too. and it's not easy ... i might go without pay for the next few months ... how is my daily expenses going to be ... what if i don't make it ? will there be a job for me ? i can teach singing for the time being to earn some living but i guess it's not stable enough ....
sometimes ... opportunities only come once... never in your life will there be twice this kind of thing to be in the top 18 groups of a competition ... i guess i gotta make a tough decision between lots of things ... due to some issues there're lots of things that i can't openly say on this website because there're too many unwanted visitors watching and the reader base is too large to be set a private website ... so it's pretty hard to me to continue writing on the difficulties i went through during these tough time .... put it in simple ... every human being living on this earth is so small and the money making society only see human beings as numbers .... so i feel i can't regret about any decisions that i've made and i have to think wisely .... though i own the website ... i write with responsibility that i don't want to hurt anyone .... and often you can see i write about good things and encouraging things. i feel if there're things that i can share and teach the readers to my website, i would by all means put it up and let them learn and know about it. because i can't bring all my experiences and knowledge into the coffin .... i want very much to share my happiness and what i've learnt with all of you..... instead of other websites that only gossip and complain about their personal thing .... gossips are juicy and attractive... these are reading pleasure. but you gain nothing from reading it. but by reading examples and the things that people went through, you will learn to prevent and learn to know that like, fighting is not right .... or traveling long distances can be tiring .... sometimes ... maybe my choice of words might not be suitable, because i simply didn't get a distinction for my english. but i guess content is what you learn from. and refrain from scrutinizing my words .... or trying to twist what it is suppose to be ...
to all readers of my website... i love you for a reason ... thanks for appreciating my music and reading about my life .... remember ... you only live once .... alot of things are from hard work and determination. once you have these 2 traits, everything is not too difficult. everything you do ... don't give up .... you will be paid off by a wonderful sunrise over the mountain that you've conquered. share your experience and happiness with everyone you know, and you will realise how beautiful this world can be. don't give up ..... frustration doesn't solve the problems .... on another note i guess if you're a parent of a child, i think that it's important to know who's website is your children reading because i find some people who write their online diary out there are just simply irresponsible and the intention is simple fame. i've read about websites teaching about committing suicide and things that you wouldn't believe about it. it's really bad influence on kids nowadays.... just another piece of advise. good day my fellow readers. simply loving every moment i live on this earth. u better do too ! :P
finally back in singapore again !! can't get my mind to rest about the competition ... it's minimum practice when i'm away... but guess my practice of 7-8 hours a day of vocal exercise helps .... was at home the whole day of yesterday doing my vocals exercise and well.... with my personal ktv system !! yeah those kind that exist in k-ster, and cha xuan !! isn't it great to own one of those at home ? well ... it's like singing non stop .... one day practice of up to 50 songs and other vocal exercise ... this shall be my routine for the next 7 days .... i find it's very good !! splendid .... improved the pitching and the grooves of the songs already .....
guess by this time all had saw the mtv already ... ahh personally i feel it's not very good ... because it's half a semitone off .... meaning the pitching is off and yet not off .... very close pitching .... it's not a single note off pitch ... it's the whole phrase !! whole phrase off half a semitone !! well ... guess it's just that time off the audition, i was not in shape ..... well can't blame anyone but myself ... can't afford this kind of mistake again .... !! okay today is practicing today with jade !! the band at swee lee jamming studio in aljunied !!... haha kinda weird to jam at other people's place right ?! but it's the fact . we're going to do that today !! first day jamming after away for 9 days !! i need to catch up .... ermmm think i have a big problem here ... can't seem to put on any weight because no matter how much i eat i still maintain at 66 kg only !! help me someone .....
gotta go before i'm late for the 10am session !! so fans of jade .... a leak of where to find your cute guitarist !! your cool bassist, the fittest keyboardist and the jazzy drummer !!
time just passes like this .... day by day you see your friends growing with you ... month by month i seeing my readers moving on with me. i guess life is about how much u appreciate things and how much you want to achieve. there're people around you passing by and moving on, and there're people who you lose contact with. i guess that's time. and that's life. how much are you willing to forgive and how much are you willing to give. i think most people on earth are selfish. and i guess most people on earth only think for themselves... is pretty hard to think for others ... because each of us have enough problems already !! right ? well but i guess i don't believe in that. i believe in giving people a hand at the best i could and helping them to pull out in the troubles that they have.
going into the competition of superband really put me through lots of pressure as a band leader and of course as the lead singer. but end of the day, i'm going to give my best shot to do everything that i can. never giving up and never gonna regret. it's a matter of how much am i being looked upon as talented or how do people see me as.... well i feel it's important no matter what things you do in life, you must not regret what you've done or what you did. you can only move on and learnt from your mistakes and absorb as much from other people's mistake.
being a musician is not an easy task. people say i fit to be in PR line, some say i've good human management skills. some say i'm talented. but it's all about chances and luck in life. but i would definitely say that i work hard and push myself very hard to do my best in everything job or task that i am given or am doing. never would give up. because taking pride in what you do is very important. no matter how people treat you or see you. you just have to do your best and die with no regrets in future.
like some people who went for interviews for a job ten over times and didn't get in. and in turn ask me for advise on where the problems lies. very often i would say.... attitude is very right .. you never give up ... but i guess you gotta look into your own mistakes and learn from where you went wrong .... i often look in the mirror and reflect on my mistakes and have no problem saying sorry to people i owe an apology to. it's just a matter of ego problem on some people sometimes. but i guess i don't want to hug my ego and hid at home. because i feel that if i learn to be humble and say sorry, i would learn something from there. that's important. in life, it's all about attitude and how much are you willing to give in. learn to give in and learn from every occasion whenever possible. reflecting in yourself once in a while. i always like to hear what's wrong with me from people.... rather than hearing good words people say about ... what about you ?
Superband rulez !! join the jade yahoo group alright !! thanks for all my friends who had been supporting me throughout and thanks to all who had wished me luck in this competition. i will do my best and never let you guys down.
was at the actors pub in boat quay right abv the 7 eleven for practice on the superband big jam show on the 25th mar 2006 7pm @ fountain of wealth ... getting busy with the schedule once again after the studio had ceased operation. time to stay focus and concentrated on this competition right now .... there're lots of publicity recently on superband ... slowly increasing day by day... more trailers and advertisements.
moving overseas for work and now in taipei .... practicing hard on my vocals to put in the best show for the 25th mar. lots of thoughts across my mind actually. but i guess it's just useless thinking about it. shall concentrate on my music aspect more ... because i've got only a pair of hands... shall leave the other things to the supporters and good pals of mine ... will be coming with more updates on what will the supporters will wear of the same color .... maybe ? or maybe a friendster account too ? hmmm sounds good... maybe someone would edit our pictures and put them into the yahoo group ... ? hmmm ok .... i shall just do music !! Music for LIFE !!
time really flies .... a week had past ... i'm going back home !! practicing my vocals overseas is not enough ... gotta practice them at home, with the keyboard, then is intensive training .... throwing all my best into this competition had became the biggest gamble in my life .... and definitely can't do it without all the support behind me. support behind me are these people who are reading my website .... it's not a blog ! ok ... it's my website... i don't blog !! haha and thanks to my readers and all my friends who support me all the way from a few years back .... they had been standing by me all these time pushing me into what i am today ....
in manchester right now .... going to sleep soon .... weather is freaking cold outside... had been snowing yesterday night ... it's like -5 degrees here ... gosh .. just saw some nice photos taken in mediacorp .. we've got the photos from that day's mtv shoot !! quite nice .... like it alot ... guess this is the time we should look forward for more updates on jade ....
yahoo group is set up already ... but i don't dare to mass email or create awareness among my friends ... because i'm afraid that rotten eggs will be flying at me ... i guess i let nature takes it course ... think it's better i get my friends to stand behind me first through this website to join jade's yahoo group ... then from there slowly i build my support up to people i don't know... thanks to all who had friendster message me, msn, emailed me .... really feel so touched and appreciate ....
in return, show you the nice photos alright ?! :P
cool right ?! hmm look forward to stage you our best show at suntec fountain of wealth on the 25th mar 2006 ! hope for the best ..... thanks all for standing behind me and spreading around to your friends around you. think this is the time we need the most support .... .
may the force be with us ..... join our yahoo group http://launch.groups.yahoo.com/group/superband_jade/