yo yo yo i'm going back ~~ in paris it's pretty nice weather in paris... cooling yet not too cold yet. but it's coming to end of autumn and starting to be winter. i didn't really go out other than having meals.. most of the time i spent my time in the room. my stupid pc was attacked by virus and i spent the whole night till next day afternoon fixing it. finally done. without any resources of any CD or boot up disk i put my computer into safe mode with network capabilities and updated my windows and did 2 online scans. the stupid network was infected  by trojan, attacking my ip ! sighzzz ....

anyway spent the time fixing it and was done. finally. was doing planning my stuffs in my room and asking about the status and progress of my studio. still in progress but fighting with time to complete as early as possible. so now is waiting for me to go back home, rest for a nap and start working and in command in the construction of my studio. spent quite a big sum on the studio. frankly speaking not very big yet not very small sum. but it's really something to me ! my savings one shot ! haha it's about what you want and what interest you in life. doing arts and music, there's lots of sacrifice that you don't see. the hardwork behind for many many years and the effortin everything you do.

i'm a perfectionist in things i do and handle. in whatever i do, no matter my daily work or my personal life. i throw in all my best and efforts to get things completed. that's the satisfaction i get. i don't get satisfaction from results because it's never easy getting satisfaction from results but getting satisfaction from efforts spent is much more fulfilling and much more motivating. keep on moving .... love singapore. love all my readers ! maybe you people like to tag on my tagboard to let me know about you and drop your email address so that i can chat with you online next time and invite you to see my work in the opening of sois studio. thanks !! appreciate alot. would like to meet you guys.

in paris right now .... thinking of my studio ... with my heart in geylang lor 24a 462B ... it's really all my efforts and money setting up a place for music and for my bunch of musician friends .... a lot of things in life is about who you know and what you know .... it's really about friends who helped you put along everything together. like me... i've got a bunch of really supportive friends and help from everyone that i need. no matter in finding whatever and needing whatever. to this life i thank the people around me who hand helped and taught me in everything they had imparted me. and to the people who had been supportive to the extend of helping me in whatever ways.

it's not easy doing anything ... no matter setting up a business or having a company. like having a company, you've gotta earn the respect of your staffs, and the trust that you have in them to help you and to support you. if anyone gotta succeed, it gotta be the person around the successful person. like being a singer, you gotta have lyricist and composer who can write good songs and lyrics and piece them together. of coz good producer who make sure the music can be arranged. not an easy task. it's the efforts and the help.

in anything one do in life... it's really about the people around you. talking about mr sim from creative. to come out with the successful products, it's really the efforts from him and the help he gets from his team of faithful and supportive company that he has got. in any aspect from a company to anything else. to come out with successful thing. it really takes more than a person's efforts. because anything cannot be set up from a person alone !

important thing is that, don't take your friends around you and the people around you for granted. you'll regret one day ... i've not regret. so you better don't .... before it's too late to say sorry when the person leaves earth .... when there's never today, there's never tomorrow

hey hey hey... had updated my photo gallery with some pictures of my band !! my band members !! SOIS . spent the whole day today from morning till late evening cleaning up and doing the works and mini renovations on our own ... low budget ... so lots of things will be done by our own hands ... so that we'll learn to appreciate the place more .. haha crap !! no money means no money !

haha anyway quite happy to own the place.. though it's not expensive... but it's still not cheap ! to own the studio will cost like $1000 a month minimum ... compared with other people my place is considered cheap. with food and transport all within reach. walking from the nearest bus-stop is like less than 1 min. and walking from aljunied mrt station is around 3 mins only. within walking distance to the red light district about 10 minutes haha and of course the place for great food !! yummy !!

pretty tiring after a hard day work and i'll still be working tomorrow.... i think it's the effort that one put in in everything one do, that is important. doesn't matter how tired and how strenuous all the things and schedules can get. but all i know is that i do these for my music ... and i shall continue to stay hungry and stay foolish. and hard work will bear its fruits one day ..... i'm living my everyday as if it's my last day....

woke up in the noon at around 3pm ... went down for dinner and was back home practicing my vocals before i go down for the quarter finals of the audition. did my best and gave my best shot to the song. my brother say that i did well and was singing alright. pitching was ok and i wore the nicest among the guys ...

but guess what ... when they announce the winners that will go through to the semi finals, i was pretty surprised that i didn't got in. but guess what, i had not much feelings for that ... haha didn't know why too ... i've put in my effort to sing the best out of the song already ... and yet i didn't get through. going thru professional training from a musician and pitching lessons from musician as well.... but the girls who went in are some kind of funny funny type ... ok can't say funny funny la but it's like abit out of expectations that i didn't get in. but another guy who sang pretty worse got in. without looks and proper dressing ... ermm ... think it's just luck ... maybe i'm not what they're looking for.... guess the judges have some other things on their mind. anyway i sang jacky cheung's version of ai ru chao shui. not an easy song. but my brother say i mastered it quite well and the effort i put in throughout the days he saw the improvement. because the progressions of the song is not simple.

i didn't get in, yet i didn't have much of any feelings. but my brother was really agitated... haha that kind of like, how come this kind of things would happen, that kind of agitation. i guess that's part and parcel of life. i was thinking it's destined to happen. because i had gave my best shot and the audiences gave me one of the loudest applause. so i guess it's sometimes fate. maybe god decided that i should concentrate doing my band first and studio first. first of all i had mastered c# key scales quite well because of my effort practicing ... well i shall say next time maybe i shouldn't choose such a hard song. haha

but to me now it doesn't matter how hard the song is. is how much had i achieved when i was learning from the song. that is important. and how much i had improved from the song. that's the key factor... people can go for competition every time and that doesn't mean that they musically understand what is making and performing music all about. for the time being now i'm fully stretched with my band's studio. had gave my younger brother to run the studio and manage my money in the studio. and i shall concentrate fully on making music and perfecting my pitch and singing technique. it's a lesson of life's never fair ....  i believe one thing. good things doesn't comes so fast. you need to work hard and climb hard before u can catch the nicest sunrise from the highest peak of everything you do .... SOIS .... symphony of infinite sound lead singer signing off .... Terrence... thanks for all the supporting sms to me ... i shall work even harder. Never give up music. since i have a group of hardworking musicians working with me. Muacks ! 

today although i didn't get into the semi finals of the competition. but i still brought my father and family to eat in crystal jade holland to celebrate my father for being a half a century old !! love my dad. though he's not very smart. but he's very wise and very willing to learn ... at his age he plays with handphone, can play and joke. i gave him a small ang bao to mark his birthday this year. though not alot but it's just a small token of 338 dollars. hehe ... crystal jade bill was like 70 bucks for 4 person. woah !! not cheap man !! but well-spent. at least it's good food that my family enjoyed. looking at the the people around .... i decide to work extreme hard for what i want and live every day as if as it's my last day of life. so that i have no regrets.... staying foolish and staying hungry working towards dreams... all business men and successful people believing in dreaming ... and importantly, working hard ...  have you done that ?

happy autumn festival !! carrying latterns ? eating mooncake ? my grandparents tell me eat pamelo and the pamelo skin in peeled in the shape of a cap, and wear it on the head, we'll be smarter in future ... i think it's a myth that i believe in... because i wear it all the way throughout my childhood even until today i was wearing it !! haha don't laugh. but definitely it's a festival to remember. it's not only a get together with your family. but with your friends and partners also !

i spent my mid autumn festival @ my grandma place and so-call celebrating my father's birthday also. my father had brought me up till what i am today and of course i am my father's pride and faith ! not shy to say his product !! i wasn't here for my mum's birthday as i was working and now grabbing the opportunity to get together with my family. coz every festival is important to me ! most of my time i'm already not in singapore.

now turn around and reflect yourself. if you're in singapore, i'm sure most of you either face the computer, watch tv, read magazines and meet your friends. never would you talk to your parents. seldom .... because communication is a problem sometimes when you grow up. BUT i feel as you grow up, you should even look more into your parent's shoes. how much effort have they spent on you during you up-bringing stages, how much time and the way of teaching had they spent to bring you up during the past years ... have you ever thought about that ?

to me what i feel is that family should communicate. but that doesn't only comes from one side. when your father have a casual chat with you, trying to bring in conversation, it's important that you have to do your part in contributing to the conversation. like we normally say, one hand doesn't clap. but when you talk to your father, you should never give up in making him speak. because he had spent all his lifetime working hard, earning money and bring you up.... i know that father seldom shows or talks about their feelings. because they're normally carrying themselves as status of a father. but one fine day, just look at how daddy and mummy talk when they are together. or look at him when he talks to his friends. it's totally different. by giving him the due respect, talk to him as a friend as well address him as daddy. it really helps !! in a father-child relationship, or parent-child relationship. it's often having the gap in between. BECAUSE it's always lacking of effective communication. to have effective communication, you gotta think in his shoes and he gotta think in your shoes ! then you will realise that communication is not a big problem.

like me, i play with my parents like i play with my friends and brother, make them know the "REAL YOU" and the friends you mixed with !! slowly they will learn about you more. often parents are always thinking... where is my child going out to and who is my child going out with. if you did nothing wrong, there's nothing to hide about !! right ? now question yourself.... have you ever think in your parents' point of view.

ok don't be surprise if you see my father tagging on my tagboard. because he reads my website ... :P this is the so-call happy family .... in life you must know never give up trying to make them speak. because they had spent the time and effort during their golden years to bring you up. i guess in future you also want your children to understand your point of view too... so speak up today ... HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL !! and to my daddy, HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!

well i believe recently there had been quite a number of readers reading my website.... going at a humble rate of 40 over a day. that makes around 280 a week and a thousand over a month. woah ... not bad ... believe those who read my website here are all my friends ....

my band's studio is almost up and my younger brother is going to manage the whole place all by himself. as i'll be busy working, he will be very busy managing the jamming studio already. shall invite you guys down for opening if there is any .... with the things going on and progressing, there're lots of things to ask about in renovation and eqiupments ... so far all the hardwork we put in, had managed to tie down the stuffs for us ... good thing is that we have all our experts around us .... hehe

over the weeks i'm spending time practicing to sing a very difficult song with many different styles of pitching and vocal techniques. not easy.... shouldn't have sang that song for the quarterfinals ... but too bad i already started learning. but it's always good. i like the challenge of singing a difficult song and learn to conquer it. so in future, all the difficult songs don't seem so difficult to me .... my brother made me practice hard for the songs by singing the song over and over again till about like almost 200 times over the 7 days ...

i had also bought an equipment for me to bring overseas and plug in to my laptop to sing in my room. hope the room's sound proof enough ... haha if not the person living next door will be like : oh what the heck ! haha ...

when i come back it's almost time for me go down and view the place and start the renovation for the place already .... so happy !!

sharing the some articles i read from my friend. don't know where he get the article. but the article in my diary, the institution of marriage article is really very very touching. i believe it's very important that relationship should be that way. it takes 2 hands to clap. and of coz ... if 1 person is working hard and putting effort in a relationship. it's no use .... two gotta put their hearts and brains together .... that article really moved me.

well ... things are going fine .... so far i believe no matter how bad things and the happenings around you are, irregardless of what's the worst thing happening in my life, i shall stay optimistic !

my mum isn't getting any better. she's still as depressed and lost about her life.... going through some changes at her age. i believe my family just have to be more patient in her and accept her as she is.

as for my father, he's retiring soon. and he's going thru a job change from a civil servant to a civilian. well good for him as he's in another phase of his career. he's celebrating his birthday on the 22th sep. that day is also the date of my singing competition quarter finals. i don't know how far i would go. just depend on how far my luck brings me.

day after day we're walking towards another phase of our life everyday that we learn to be smarter, wiser, and more mature. but it really depends on how much u learn from your surroundings. but not just what that happens on you. i learnt from many things that happened on many people and learnt from people with experiences in many industries. for eg. my friend dasmond koh, an artiste, my radio pal, Cruz Teng, My dad of course. and many many people outside. i believe learning could make you a better person in life. eqiupped with experiences that one can never forget and let you have better experiences and able to solve problems better than normal people.

one should not resign to just fate... my destiny is in my own hands and my life is in my own hands. i live through this life from 1 day old till maybe 60+ or even later or earlier i won't know. but i believe, living on this earth you gotta make every minute and every second well spent. no matter what happens. even if i die the next day, i'll still have no regrets in my life.

Another thing would be living my life with my conscious clear. not guilty of anything and never had done any bad things to anyone. at least i'm able to stand straight and walk straight. I'm not handicapped. even if i'm, i shall live my life with a heart that will never give up pumping....

looking at the dengue fever that had take lives of people like a person's mum i read on in the straits times. it's pretty sad. his mum died of dengue fever. that's singapore latest health threat in the last few months. to help prevent dengue is everybody's job !! remember to do the necessary precautions against this deadly diseases that can take away life of your love ones.... of course it's the best if you're a person who is first aid trained. like me and my younger brother. both of us are first aid trained. i can save my parents and the lives of people around me. so that i won't regret or be in despair when i see them in need of first aid to revive or help them when need arises.

ok what am i talking ... haha ... bringing the topic too long .... resting in singapore currently with another 1 more day to rest... before i start work on the sunday this week ! yohoo ... i believe there're tons of my friends and supporter outside who genuinely support me all the way and stand by me if anything goes wrong. ... that's the best ! and you know those friends are people that won't get away from you when you've trouble. I'm glad that there're all around me. they see me move on day by day ... see me handle things day by day and they like me for the way i handle things and work on things... without them, i would have been what i am today... and without stepping into the industry of entertainment at age of 17, i would have been what i am today as well. i've learnt alot from the industry ... from working as a peanut to a assistant marketing executive for promotion and records. from starting my own business in IT in 1997 till 1998. and being a model manager grooming my own model successful enough to even shoot big ads and do big shows in the local scene, i'm really impressed that i've gone this far in life at my age.. haha ok stop the boasting and crap...

in life is about how much u learn that matters and is about how far u excel and how much hard work you put in in everything you do. a smart person will be stupid if he/she is lazy. but a less smart person will be smarter if he/she puts in hardwork in everything he/she does. from today on, start being hardworking and never try to loath when it comes to work ok !!

and you shall know believe in that, the more people want to bring you to sadness and force you to ground, the more you should stand up and be happy.... god is fair in everything they do... they give you one but they don't give you the other. be satisfied with what u have currently and work hard for those things that you don't have... people will grow to see you hard work and passion for life. the world is fair and justice stands .... you'll be paid for what you do and what you've put in. :) all about my life ... Terrence .... 

in san francisco now.... was chilling out with my colleagues on this flight in my room the previous night. slept at only 5.00am in the morning san francisco time. and woke up as early as 8am. don't know why couldn't sleep anymore. it's definitely the jet lag. i woke up to pack my things in the morning. arranging my stuffs in my laptop bag and clearing my cargo bag .....

wondering how's my studio going on .... the pricing and the things that my younger brother is handling right now is going thru some negotiations and looking for materials on sound proofing the studio .... there're actually many ways of sound proofing ... what we're looking at is actually spend 1000 dollars on building a partition and then buy materials like sound proof sponge and carpet to cover the walls L shape corner to let noise and echo be at the minimum. had yet to see the neighbour of our studio. and had not sign any contract with the owner of the place yet.

going thru days of calculations i think it's gonna be like 80 percent of renting the place already. talked to one of my music friends. he's actually a guy who is in the same batch as ke gui min and lin yi xin who are doing music right now. my friend gave up music to actually further his studies 10 years ago talked to me last wednesday on msn for so long ( like 3 hours ). can actually still feel his passion for music and his passion for making music. he's now happy for gui min and yi xin making success in music right now. and he somehow or rather has some regrets in not carrying on and pursuing his dreams. so happy that he's on my side and giving me full support on music. he's now my band's appointed lyrics composer !! and he had written quite a few songs like feng le / ting bu jian by cai li zhang, and chong qing's song in his album, jeff chang's bu zuo ni de ai ren. when i ask him what he intend to do in the next 10 years in his life since his career already settled down. he say he don't have any aim so far. so i told him why not we continue our hobby / interest or dream ? AND HE AGREES !! i guess by end of this year we shall be coming out with our bands full composition !! and shall we succeed it really depends on us ! dream on and die with no regrets !!

like my younger brother. he pursue his dreams to actually study music and make music his life. i'm really happy for him. but it's like i'm not sure if i can pursue my dreams in making music too. well i just can say that i have to work hard for it and make ends meet. because i still have to support him in his studies financially and support my family financially in many aspects. so i can't just give up my current job right now. but definitely i'm not going to give up ! because i have my friends and my readers of my website giving me the moral support !! and I DON'T WANT TO REGRET FOR LIFE ....

it's not an easy road i know .... it's about hard work and luck. but definitely that's not going to beat me... i'll be leaving san francisco tonight and going back to hong kong already. had already planned to go karaoke in hong kong to actually practice for my competition by party world. shall make use of every opportunity i have to create the luck myself. i believe that there's no free lunch on this world. and sure that i'm going to work hard for it to at least be in the finals of the competition no matter what.