anyway time really passes so so fast, it's already after xmas.... had been to amsterdam and nanjing for the past 2 weeks and seldom would i have time to stay in singapore. so happen that in amsterdam the weather is so bad that i didn't really do any sight seeing.... the weather in amsterdam was raining everyday and so so cold .... around 0-5 degrees. but i didn't manage to see any snow. sighzz.... 

so i chilled out at the casino. spending most of my time there in amsterdam. actually i did walk around on the shopping streets. but never buy anything from amsterdam coz it's really expensive euros and the raining of cold water on my head really dampen the spirit of doing anything. walked around amsterdam, looking at the weather there, it's like refrigerators all around the country with fresh flowers and fruits. i guess that's europe. coz it's cold enough during winter and there's so much moist in the air that the flowers and fruits look so nice on the streets.

saw quite a few drug stores and smell people smoking drugs in amsterdam. never would i touch that in my life. it's like total damage to human body. but definitely better than those chemical produced drugs. coz most drugs in amsterdam are all herbs mostly and natural from plants which don't really go thru much processing. ok - end of amsterdam -

after i came back from amsterdam, i was really busy shopping for xmas present coz i really don't know what to buy for xmas. mostly spending time walking around the streets of bugis and orchard. wasn't too productive at all. also after my amsterdam trip i went for audition for the talentquest 05 competition thingy in the singing category. coz i was sick during the amsterdam trip too. so i didn't really sound too good. don't wanna think about it too much.

after i finish my audition. next day i know i'm leaving for nanjing. it's a pretty nice place in nanjing with all the mountains and the war memorials. sight seeing in china has lots of memorials around. can be pretty boring though. but ! the weather is so so cold and the scenery is the thing that really make me enjoy my trip there. in nanjing the locals like to have lots of cold dish for their meal and to me, i feel the cold dish taste kind of like not so appetizing to me. but i guess it'll be much more nicer to look at the photos that illustrates better than reading at my simple english description of nanjing. hahaha

apart from nanjing, when i just touch down from my nanjing flight, i headed straight to dasmond's place for xmas celebration and gift exchange party at his place. no hard partying or drink till you drop session during this xmas. as usual as past years, we just chill out at his place, play some bingo and get going with the gift exchange. look at the photos taken at the xmas celebration in dasmond's place !!

ok back to serious matter, devils tuesday night is open to the floor to sing.... hardy, the lead singer was a friend's friend. he had invited me to jam together if there's chance. i was thinking... by 2004 the only tuesday i'm available is on 14th dec 2004. so anyone care to join me at devils for a drink as well as accompany me there to see me break the glasses ??? guess i'll be there with my brother at around 1000pm.... see you all around right . give me a sms.

just came back from flight today doing a bali turn around... after that i went to malaysia pick my mum up ... the jam back to singapore is so bad that i stayed 2 hours at my grandma place watching tv in order to avoid the jam ....

last few days was chill out session with my buddies, darren, danny and weiyu. at first on friday night me darren and danny went to devils bar for a short drink. end up danny brought his group of friends drinking till he collapse.... for 10 years i know him, it's the first time i see him like this .... maybe stress over relationship problems or whatever i don't wanna elaborate. becoz i was training up last 2 days. so happen that my hand is already aching coz the muscles haven't recover. and that night when he was drunk, me and darren drag that 80+kg bugger home and all the way up to his flat. he laid like a dead body with no reactions at all....  so 80+ kg  adds up to 2 x 80+ kg ..... coz of the " dead man weight " that night after i went back, i got my muscle torn .... on my right arm .... i couldn't even raise my hand up.  that ended my friday night.

of coz that never end.... me, darren, danny, weiyu and my younger brother went down again on saturday night. this time really for light drinks. was pretty nice at first... but it turned out sore for me .... 

here comes the picture.... i decided to go devils bar the last minute ... only decided to go down like around 8+pm .... then suddenly there's person who call me and ask if what time i'm going devils bar. so i told her that i'll be going down with my friends for light drinks. so she say she wanna meet me there. then i say ok. fine. should not be any problem. but there's a big problem. when i hang up the phone. i was thinking. how she look like.... i don't remember this person at all..... after i saw her at devils bar. we even walk past each other while contacting each other on the phone....  that's the first part. coz i couldn't recognize who she is and she also couldn't recognize who am i. ok let's give her a name. ABC . now i remember. it was like 1 month ago when i was at devils with my friend, she came over to dance with me and get my number. so i just gave her. but after that never hear from her for like 1 whole month even when i msg her like 2 weeks after,  to ask her who is she.... and how come her name is in my handphone.. , so now i know who is she ......... 

so after we met i brought her to our table. she then started to get touchy. so i just act blur. then she started to pull my hand over on her body.... so i just don't really lay there. ge siao a while and when she don't notice, i pull my hand off... so until a guy came to look for her i suppose is her friend. so she walked away for a while. at this time, my colleagues came to look for me to chill out together. obviously my colleagues are girls, ABC suddenly appear and pull me from behind, she started saying, " i know you're very good looking, and a lot of girls like you. but when you talk to your friend now when i'm around, i'm not happy. i'm jealous and for your info, i like you ! ". after listening to this statement, it really changed my night. she really rocked nightmare into me.... at first she told my colleagues off, saying that she's my girlfriend. keep asking me for a dance.... things started to turn ugly ... she refuse to stop. i almost wanted to ask my friend for help who's working in devils to get the security. but i hold back. she's only a girl .... don't wanna be to mean.

so she say she wanna talk to me at a more quiet place, she brought me down to the second level of the pub where it's much more quiet. so she started to say, she started to like me and all this crap. then i tell her, this is only the so call second time i saw her and she don't even recognize me when we met at devils on that night. how can she say she like me..... after telling her off with some harsh words. she started to tell me her story ... say she just broke off with her boyfriend and all those stuffs. but i guess maybe it's becoz of that matter she probably went mentally nuts a little. ....

it was really very very entertaining night for my friends ..... for those who were around there.... a show for them ....

after my melbourne flight .... was rather nice that i get to stay in singapore for the pass few days .... was on standby on the 7th and 8th ... at home . for the last 36 hours ... cleared and did my stuffs ... cleared my pc games CD. threw quite alot of them already. my dream didn't come true. no one went karaoke with me . send my younger brother out for band on monday night during my off day. went out for supper with a few of my friends yesterday at clementi cheese prata shop behind nus ...  on the way back i went to the petrol kiosk nearby to clean my car up .... finish washing car at around 5am

hehe very proud of myself that i actually vacumn the whole car ... clean and free from dust. had just woke up this afternoon for at 3+ pm ... writing this diary. actually was at home singing yesterday. but didn't quite have much form to sing. coz of my cough . had been coughing for 2 weeks and yet to recover after finishing 1 bottle of cough mixture in the 1 week period.

really don't know why there're so many calls to ask me to apply for credit cards. first is dbs the other is hsbc .... first year free and all this kind of shit..  waste my phone calls ... last month my phone bill cost me close to 600 bucks ... yet this month cost me still 400+ even i reduce my usage

sighzz.... anyone would help me pay ?? :(

on my lunar birthday i got a surprise on the 11th nov when i got a birthday cake delivered from prima deli to my place. it's a friend who sent me the birthday cake. anyway would like to thank the person for sending me that cake. it really caught me by surprise. seldom would i be caught by surprises..... thanks

just return from my melbourne flight .... sms my NS time buddy ... coz he's studying in melbourne ... thought can meet him for dinner but he wasn't free .... i sms him .... but he replied late ... don't know what's wrong with the sms or what's wrong with my phone .... he say he smsed me but i didn't really recieve it .... anyway i guess people nowadays take nice people for granted .....

i trusted my buddy so much ... yet i feel betrayed.... i don't know what's going on .... but there're too much politics here and there. well ... sometimes that's just part and parcel of life ..... when we treat people nice doesn't mean that people have to treat us nice .... so i guess the best thing to do is to be wary of the people around ....

when i go on flight everytime ..... there're colleagues asking i'm straight or crooked ..... just because i'm nice and gentle .... and just because i don't talk or flirt with them ..... sighz ... i've really got nothing to say .... up till now i go on work i always gave people the impression that i'm a faggot .... that's life .....