had been lazing at home for the whole day from morning till evening... was busy doing up the things for my class of fellow stewardess trainee on my computer last night. spent an hours doing it.

for the whole of last week, had been a busy week for me. we went to make our cabin crew pass at the pass office and shall receive our pass next week. hurray !! there's lots of things to study from food to equipment and all the other things on safety and precautions. had been going thru brain raking sessions to memorize them.

on this week i was out on thursday with my new colleagues to the KTV. pretty fun though. didn't dare to sing much. coz there's like 6 people in the room. so took a while to queue and was pretty reluctant to sing. coz i had not been singing for a long time. am afraid that i can't sing anymore... think it's time i need more practice to buck up my singing .... 

sometimes i don't know if i should continue to pursue my dreams or should i be flying first.... it took me quite a while to decide. cause everyone only lived once and everyone have to choose and grab their chances if there's any. i had just rejected an offer from my band to audit for a new entertainment outlet to sing. sighzz ... don't know if i made the right or wrong choice. it had been hunting me for the pass few weeks. at the same time, the competition of talentquest was really poor organizing... they demanded me to attend for an interview with UFM 1003 on a weekday afternoon when i have to attend lessons with SIA. and they played me around like a kid. well the only thing i can comment is they're really poor in organizing and only able know how to screw things up. i guess i'm not the only one who experience this with the organization. there's more people who are much more unhappy with them outside.

anyway i've gave up two chances being given to me. but really, being an artiste is pretty hard to start with. especially the effort and time and the financial difficulty part that i've to struggle thru and the time is really wait and wait and wait. you won't know how long you would wait to be able to step out as an artiste and there's not guarantee whether you can get famous or not. it all depends on luck.

at the time being. since i'm still young, i'll take the opportunity to fly around first then decide see how far can i go. i'll still work on my music and my passion and dreams....

things are pretty packed for me this week. that's why haven't got time to update this page of mine. so sorry about it. guess you people had been tired to see there's nothing to surf this week . hehe. sorry i'll buck up and provide more information and updates.

there's so many things that had happened this week. my training is so busy and got so many things to do .... waking up at 6.00am everyday, travelling from jurong to changi everyday. so tiring... that will last till late june .... everyday from monday to friday. time really flies. ... a week had went by. you know what ? i slept at 2 am on average everyday. and woke up at 6am. worst case it's like the travelling time on mrt is so torturing. sometimes i've to just stand from jurong to tanah merah. yawnz ....

so happy that i recieved the comments from the visitors of my website. but of course if you guys can sign on my guestbook that will be much more better. cause that will give me forever memories of my time that i've spent doing music and this homepage. the tagboard mostly for comments and i can't keep them. but for guestbook i can .....

anyway i went to celebrate my buddies' 23th birthday on thursday nite which is yesterday. went to have swensen for dinner and went to karaoke. ended up sleeping at 2+am last nite and today went to class learning all the things and moving here and there. feeling so tired. i missed my classes on monday and already 2 weeks i'm missing in action from my singing class. think my teacher is going to kill me.

another news to break as well... feel so happy ... there's like people asking me for autograph pic of me to be sent to them. i'm still considering whether to give or not... or why not make it this way, will only send you my autograph pic
i) if you had signed my homepage
ii) sent me a photo of yourself.
then email me your home address.

sorry la i know very thick skin. but guess i won't let you have nightmares with my photo.... maybe will update more songs and more information on sunday or by next week comes. signing off here.... there's some good news to be announced by next weekend.

pretty rush to do so many things in a day. woke up in the noon at 1 pm plus to go for a hair cut. cause my hair is too long for my next job as a air crew trainee. sighzz ... gotta cut hair.... but at least i guess is not much of difference. went to work after my cut. i bought old chang kee for my company staff. after working there like 2 months i think i'm more of a emotional person. hard to give things up. it's a matter of responsibility to let go my current job. sighzz ....

at this point of time. this current life that i'm living. pretty fast pace and busy. many things had happened within this 2 month. took part in a competition, went out in the semi finals round. went to interview for sia steward. went thru 6 tests. and doing sales and marketing for my company. had managed to clinch and think should be a closed deal of $ 300, 000 . a three hundred thousand deal. i should be able to know the result and outcome of the deal by this week. cause they will give me a call and confirmation by this week to start working on the project.

so far i feel things are so much to handle. but i still manage to squeeze myself to make things happen. think it's time to sleep. if not i can't get up for my training at changi tomorrow at 8.30am. that means i've to wake up at 6.15am. cause i live in the west !!! talk tomorrow okay ? 

 time is so little. can i have more time ?

finally this is the day that will determine if i move into a new phase of my life. always wanting to get a chance to travel. today went to SIA to drop my signature with my father on the contract of 18 months with SIA. woke up at 8 in the morning. rush down to changi area. thereafter the contract signing. continue to work until 12am at nite. very long day right ? what to do .... i'm a workaholic. what i always believe in is " hard work pays " .

woke up at 1.30pm in the noon. was pretty upset yesterday, cause being fly plane my friends. ended up me alone with other group of friends in devils bar. had been pretty messy recently. cause a job hop will be coming in this week. will be going to sign my contract with sia this tuesday and training starts friday 11th mar 2004. hope everything can go smoothly. since i'm young i guess flying around would be good for me.

spent time at home doing house chores from the minute i wake up till like late noon 4pm. thereafter i picked up my mic and started recording and practicing my singing. finally had recorded the songs that are suppose to be posted. really took me some time and effort to fix up 7 songs in a day. went thru the songs that i've written for the past few years. guess every song means something. in fact i found some songs that was written few years ago and forgotten how to sing them. with lyrics and chords. really brought up some of  my memories ....

working till very late last night. so spent sometime sleeping late till like 12pm.... after i woke up in the morning and get ready to go work, just before i stepped out of my home, i received a call. that call was from the company which i went thru many rounds of interview.....

firstly went thru a first and second interview on the same day. after that went to the third round of interview, then a psychological test and a swimming test. and finally after the medical screening in clinic last thursday, i received the call from the company that i've made it thru to the interview with our country airline. as a cabin crew with sia. no big deal about the job, but the salary is much higher than the one i'm getting now.

in the current company, i've a feeling that i won't be advancing any further or it'll be pretty slow. i prepared my resignation letter and handed to my superior today. he was pretty shocked. afterall he had never had that feeling of that i'm going to quit from the current job. frankly speaking, i like my current job pretty well. but i guess the opportunity to travel out of the country would be a chance for me to get closer to more people and have a better view on things. i love traveling and i love to see.....

in fact. my boss from my current company intended to offer me a higher basic to get me to stay. coz he say it's hard to come across someone who he can trust and worked efficiently like me.... so say he would like to discuss my resignation with the board directors and request me to stay. but how much can he further increase my pay ? i'm working for them in their sales, meeting clients talking about projects of over ten thousands and helped them build good rapport with clients, and i do their technical job of fixing pcs and doing the pcs as well. i bet it's pretty hard for them to come across someone like me that do all the things for them. marketing and technical knowledge.....

i don't know..... i'm getting $1.5k per month. with no other incentives. he say wanna give me phone incentive of $100 and so on and increasing my basic by another $200 that will be like only $1.8k per month only. whereas SQ is giving me 1.2k of basic and my allowance can go up to 3 to 4 times of the 1.2k, that's quite alot for each month.

but what if my current company increase to $2.2k for me ? i will only consider if the company is willing to pay me up to $2.2k excluding commission. if the increment of my pay from current company is not lower than that, i've no doubts about leaving. cuz i guess what SQ offer me is a chance to travel and a chance to meet more people. which gives me more opportunities to meet people from everywhere and gives me better prospect in future. who know's if i'm lucky, i might well be the next GM of a GLC or whatever. much more better chances lo.

and i'll have more money to groom myself and continue to look young, coz if i'm not wrong, SQ should have grooming allowances. i'm not too sure gotta check it out.....  can anyone give me any opinions on the things that's going on ?

[ 2nd mar 2004 ]

busy day . very busy with work . started to go out of office and running around in town and everywhere, from 1.30pm start reaching office. but now it's like 4+pm left office to run errands outside. till 2+am then i finish the errands. collect a few cheques from clients. and just got pay today. not alot. infact to be frank it's very less. had started working only since mid jan. so it's like i've to wait till the 3rd month and see how well am i paid. if not i guess i'm switching already.

so hardworking also no use. gotta find the right company. guess it's still fine. cuz i'm still young. being a marketing manager in the firm, feel pretty tired. cuz got really lots of things to cover on. and got plenty of paper work to get on.

now i'm waiting for the other job that i've applied. the one with many rounds of interview. and will have a great chance to travel around worldwide. hehe i really look forward for it. but i don't know if i can pass the medical screening and psychological test or not. very worried and anxious. waiting and expecting for their call everyday. seems to be a long wait. and i've been working hard also. but seems like maybe i just join the company. so it'll take some time.

well life is just like this. what to do. was having a drink at madam wong just now after my work. very sianz and bored and headache over my future.

sometimes it's just about time and it's just about luck. no luck means no luck. can't help .... gotta wait for the opportunity to come by. it' not easier. sometimes it takes a life time for some people. but sometimes it just come for the luckier ones. not everyone will get the luck. but i'll wait for mine. hope tomorrow will be better.....